hurt

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain, the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting
tried to kill it all away but I remember everything

What have I become, my sweetest friend
everyone I know goes away in the end.

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Nine Inch Nails
Hurt (Quiet)
Halo 10: Further Down The Spiral (1995)